Your probably think that this blog is finished. I mean, I haven't updated for so long. Anyway, I thought i'd just start blogger again. Too many thoughts festering in my mind, going unheard by the masses. But then again, are my thoughts of any use? I guess that's why I hardly ever blog, because I always think "Is anyone even reading this?" and "No one would enjoy reading this!" - but those negative thoughts will have to be put aside for the time being.
Have you ever wondered what your greatest mistake is? I mean, everyday we make mistakes. Some big, some small, some we forget about within a few minutes. Others linger. Have you ever tried to quantify what the greatest one is though? How do you judge "the greatest mistake" (herein referred to as "GM")? How do you go about stacking it up against all other mistakes, and somehow realising, yes, this is the "GM"?
Well, in my case, I think I have realised. I made my "GM" almost 1 year ago. At the time, I didn't realise it was even a mistake. I had somehow convinced myself, that it was the "right thing to do". I mean, that's one of the greatest cliches ever, and I fell for it. I mean, if someone says "it's the right thing to do", usually, 9 times out of 10, it's not. It's just that you've somehow cut yourself off from reality, and created this state of mind, where you become overly critical and logically flawed. And you end up with what? The "GM"
Then again, the whole discovery of your "GM" is only half the equation. The real dilemma is, how to solve it? How to stop regretting the mistake, and trying to somehow rectify it. Of course, that's easier said than done. But if you don't try, then it can't be your "GM". If you don't care enough to try everything in your power to rectify it, than it's just a mistake, not your "GM".
Anyway, I'm not going to say what my "GM" is. That's for me to know. But i've started to try and rectify it. Do I feel that I can? Not really. I'm not entirely sure that I can rectify it, and that may really be the greatest mistake.